She is always trying to get ahead, find her purpose. The feelings of despair always creep in causing a repetitiveness she knew all too well, the repetitiveness of destruction. She is always at the last of the food and the dollar in her pocket. It felt as though she was purposely doing it as a punishment for not finding her purpose.
Everything you do in your life will be insignificant to the big picture of life but everyone has to play their part.